Restless Nights

Sometimes I have a hard time staying a sleep at night, and right now is no exception. I woke up at 3am to go to the bathroom, and here I find myself at 5am blogging in attempt to wear myself out a little. Well, I'm supposed to get up in an hour, so I guess I better make it quick, or else I will be having a loooooooong day. According to my iCal I'll be back home tonight to fix dinner around 8:30pm after working my temp job for 9 hours, driving to Lafayette and back, and going to the gym - phew! I think 'm already exhausted. Perhaps that's why my mind is racing; I'm a little wound up before the week even has begun? I went to bed early, though, I admit, close to 10pm, and I fell asleep immediately. Well, lately I have had many thoughts about the future, family, and health, and these are all things that I feel are at a halt these day while I'm situating a more or less permanent work identity. I assume these sleepless nights are an expression of this. 

I miss my family, and events like my Danish Grandfather's birthday next weekend remind me that I haven't made it to his birthday (nor my grandmother's for that matter) in 10 years. I realize how lucky I am to still have them around, and consequently a slight feeling of guilt settles in my conscious. How can I make up for this? Well, Eric has luckily agreed that we go and visit my Danish cousin in Thousand Oaks next weekend. She lives there with her husband and two wonderful girls. Her sister, who lives in Denmark, is coming out to visit, and I practically invited myself to stop by during this time. I very much look forward to it, and I got the idea that we call my grandfather, while I'm there, so he can hear a "happy birthday" from all of us while in the same room. Hopefully it's a thought that will come true.

Anyhow, I better find my way back to bed even though I haven't covered my thoughts regarding the future and my health yet. In the mean time, I'll look forward to Eric's Dad's reaction when he receives the e-card I just sent him in honor of his birthday. Happy birthday Dad!